It was a couple of days before Marshall Graham got back to Keith and Lance about
Sven. They had him on proper medication; the infection that he had been so
worried about was gone and showed no signs of coming back. Plus, while he was in
the hospital he was getting the best counseling that Marshall Graham could
arrange for him.
Marshall Graham would also see to it that he would
continue his counseling even after he was released from the hospital. Keith and
Lance were really glad that things were going to turn around for Sven but as far
as the yearend class work, the outlook looked grim.
They decided that
since the physical and mental part of Sven were taken care of; Keith and Lance
decided they would take care of the academic part of Sven's recovery.
They went around to a lot of Sven's teachers and got all the work that
Sven would need to know to complete the semester. Then Keith and Lance sat down
and between the two of them worked out simple lessions that Sven could do in an
evenng or weekend but wouldn't tire Sven out too much mentally. They knew he had
enough on his mind as it was without adding more burden than really necessary.
When they had finished Keith looked at Lance.
"So, are you going to be
the one to talk to Sven about doing these lessions or am I?" asked Keith.
"You know I gotta, I just hope he's receptive to it."
"If he
isn't, you'll just have to make him."
"I'm just hoping it don't come
down to that. He'll be allowed to come back to the apartment this weekend from
being in the transition house, though he's not allowed to attend classes.
That'll give us evenings and weekends to get him back on the right track."
"Here's hoping he goes for it."
"Here's hoping." Lance whispered
with a heavy heart.
The weekend came very slowly as Sven came home.
Keith conveniently arranged a date so that Sven and Lance could have the place
to themselves.
After Sven got settled, Lance sat him on the couch and
then sat across from him.
"Now, I know there is a lot going on in your
life right now and a lot of stuff that you can't talk about yet but there is one
thing we need to discuss. There is two months until final exams; you are in
danger of failing everything and repeating the year.
"If you repeat the
year, you know what that means. More tuition fees, losing the credits you have
all ready accumulated for the year. Plus there is a strong chance that your name
will be dropped from the space program.
"I know how much going into
space means to you. When we started here it was all you could talk about. It
brought you out of your slump and shell even if it was only for a little while."
Sven looked down at his hands. He spread them helplessly. Too much
coming at him at once. He knew what Lance was saying, he knew it was true but
yet he didn't really care right now.
"I don't know what to say. I don't
know what you want me to say. If you want me to say I care, right now I don't, I
really don't."
"I can understand. You need time. I'm willing to give you
all the time you need, the only trouble is there isn't much. I don't want to see
you fail."
Sven looked up sharply, his eyes flashing viciously.
"I won't fail. I ain't gonna fail. I'll do the stupid work, I'll get it
done, and do the best I can. I just need time, that's all, just time."
"Sven, I hate to push you on this but time is a luxury that you cannot
afford right now."
"Look Lance, I gotta get things back into
perspective. I've got a trial coming up and I still feel like shit. So, just get
the hell off my ass." Sven got up and went to his room slamming the door hard
behind him.
Lance sat staring at the door, a lump growing in his throat.
He knew Sven didn't mean that but it still hurt.
Keith came home at that
moment. He didn't have to ask to know how it was going. He could tell by the
look on Lance's face that it hadn't gone good.
"He didn't go for it, did
he?"
"No, he's still really angry. I can understand his point but the
only trouble is that we don't have time to waste."
"I know and I hate to
see him held back a year because of all this mess."
"I guess the only
thing I can do is let him cool off then try again."
"No, let me talk to
him." Keith got off his coat and had a quick lunch then went to talk to Sven. He
knocked lightly then waited for Sven to let him in.
"Can we talk?"
"There's nothing to talk about." Sven growled.
"I know you're
pretty upset and you have every right to be but, Sven, you can't let your
education slip away. Lance and I want to help you in every way that we can.
We're willing to give up our evenings and weekends to help you. You were so
excited when you got accepted here and now you're willing to throw that away.
Throw away all the money and work you've put into this so far."
"You
don't understand, Keith."
"No Sven, I don't understand. But what I do
understand is that if you throw all this away now, you're letting him win.
You're letting him take your pride, dignity and self respect."
Sven
jumped up from his bed; grabbing Keith by the throat he slammed him back against
the door.
"You don't know what the hell you are talking about."
"No Sven, I do, it's just that you don't want to hear it."
Sven
snarled and roughly pushed himself away from Keith. He knew Keith was right but
it was like fire to his skin to hear it. He turned his back to Keith to keep him
from seeing the tears that streaked his hot cheeks.
"Just leave me
alone."
Keith left the room visibly shaken.
Lance turned the TV
off and looked over at Keith. Keith shook his head sadly.
"Forget it,
Lance. I don't think we can expect any cooperation from him. I'll give Marshall
Graham a call and tell him not to expect Sven at the finals this year."
Lance nodded slowly.
"Yeah, he hasn't done enough work to
qualify."
At that moment Sven came out of his room.
"Just give
me two weeks to get the trial over. I only have to testify, I don't have to be
there through the whole thing. Once I get that agony over with then I think I
might be able to re evaluate the situation better. Right now, I'm too angry and
bitter to think straight. I feel like I've just been raped in every sense of the
word in every way possible and it could get worse, it could get uglier. I just
need time."
"That's all we can ask, Sven."
Lance replied as Sven
went back into his room and quietly closed the door.